Self-pity Party

As I'm sitting here, watching POTUS deliver the State of the Union, I can't help but not pay attention and have a self-pity party on my couch.

I'm severely unemployed. I've applied to numerous jobs that I feel I'm qualified for and not one has called/emailed/sent a carrier pigeon. It's pretty insulting and incredibly disheartening.

The last time I was unemployed for this amount of time, which is now at this point six months, give or take a three-week stint as a temp in October, I at least had a full-time school schedule to keep me busy.

Now, I have the pleasure of filling my days staring at the same job listings over and over again.

I don't know where I went wrong in life. I guess it was that journalism degree. Maybe I should've been a doctor/lawyer/businessperson.

Honestly, I don't know where to start to change my situation and it's such a bummer because I'd really like to start living an adult life.

2014 will be MY year

I say this every year, but this time I mean it. (I also say that every year).

I started out 2014 the heaviest I've ever been in my life. 207 lbs. Yeah, I said my weight on the internet. Whatevs.

I've never really had low self esteem that I can recall, and I've never been very humble either. If I think I'm awesome at something, I'll let you know.

But back to the point. I'm over weight and I have been most of my life, I'm very much aware of that. However for the first time in a while, I'm feeling uncomfortable about it.

My back aches, I don't dig the way I look in my clothes sometimes, I'm having some serious muffin top issues lately, it's just not cool anymore.

So this year, I'm actually going to follow through on my plans to do something about it.  (Again, something I say every year.)

I don't know why, but 2014 feels different. Maybe I've finally matured. Maybe not. Maybe a year of following fitness boards on Pinterest and fitspo Instagramers has finally gotten to me.

Either way, my resolution for 2014 is to just get stuff done. Whatever it is. Weight loss. Get it done. Finding a job. Get it done. Keep my room clean. Get it done.